The Eyes of your Mood
It’s amazing how different life becomes depending on what mood you are in. You don’t realize the influence either mood has on you until it levels out and you realize how different everything is with or without the high or low. This is when you become aware that the solid objective world that you once thought existed out there in its completeness, is really just a reflection of what is going on in here - inside your mind. You make decisions and choices in what you thought was your best judgment and at the time you were probably convinced the choices were in your best judgment, but you soon realize how altered your mind must have been once you return to temporary stability and you see how truly different everything now appears.
Tags: bipolar, bipolar disorder, manic depression
December 5th, 2007 at 11:06 am
this is so true. I really understand what you’re saying. I have been stable now for a few months and I look back on some ideas and judgements (particularly really personal reflections, as in my diary) and the distortions in thinking are so obvious. I still find it hard to imagine having such varying amounts of energy. when I am stable I find it hard to totally really imagine the feeling of not being able to get out of bed or the elation of never wanting to stop doing something (something which in reality is not all that fascinating to me anyway!). If only I could remember this when I get low…